Breathing

I can’t breathe

I can’t fucking breathe

I’m swallowing the back of my throat

Over and over

So scared of losing what I cannot keep

Rocking into the dark

She is so beautiful, and I want to hold her.

But I can’t even say my own name

I can’t even say who I am

I’m inevitably going to lose

The only person who can

Hi

If you were somebody else, if you were anything else

I wouldn't love you, I really wouldn't

For once I don't know what's going through your mind

I could guess your worried

Don't be, I think we're for life

It scares me when you talk like that, of course we'll be fine

I only want good things for you

Do you ever get the feeling your making a bad situation worse

Or saying something you know is provoking

But you say it anyway. I do

You worry about what other people think

Maybe you should worry about what I think

I'm finding your reaction

Vaguely irritating. But then

This morning I felt like death, and letters are healing

You don't need to read this for me to heal

It's already done.

I want to spend forever with you. But -

- Only if you fancy it